I AM ANGRY

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Yes! I have been angry with God. I even found it hard to pray and talk to him. He is my best friend but i seem to be taking out time off to vent my anger towards Him. Why should He allow me go through the process, why the pain? I thought that by giving me His Word all was settled.  He said He will see me through, why then am i allowed to go through this?  Why is He being so unfair to me? Why is He putting me through all this stress and making me ask these questions?



Hey! Friends, this has been my questions for sometime now. I was beginning to wonder if God was just watching me stress myself over issues He is supposed to take care of for me. Issues He told me He was going to handle, was He just folding his arms and seeing me being treated unfairly.


Friends, i have been angry with my best friend.  I stopped studying His Word, i prayed for only ceremonial purposes. I was hoping that my anger was going to arm twist my best friend into granting all my requests. Yes! I was so angry that i was no longer appreciating things he was doing already. I was just so set with getting my way and he had to do it at my own time that i had set for myself.
To me i was being me! Yes Me! All about Me!


Yes! How was i even going to see the good things He was doing, he has not even done the best things i wanted. I have been like this for sometime now, i was just engrossed in my selfish desires that i took my eyes off the true things that mattered most to me. Testimonies were all around me but i had my eyes on the greatest price, which had to be my desire. I stopped being happy, i might look happy but i wasn't complete without my best friend. Was angry still until I heard His voice.


'Why are you angry'?He asked.

 I began first by opening up my book of plans and began to tell him all the plans i had for myself at this time. (I am one of those people who write all my plans down with a time clause attached). I told him how it was so unfair that my plans were not working according to my timing. I was angry, my time was ticking. I told him i knew he could grant me all that i wanted. He knew how important it was to me. I went on and on about how much life could have been better for me if my plans had worked out.


He opened my eyes to these scriptures:

 Matthew 6:25-26 (Msg) "If you decide for God, living a life of God-worship, it follows that you don't fuss about what's on the table at mealtimes or whether the clothes in your closet are in fashion. There is far more to your life than the food you put in your stomach, more to your outer appearance than the clothes you hang on your body. Look at the birds, free and unfettered, not tied down to a job description, careless in the care of God. And you count far more to him than birds.

At that moment i realised my sins:

*Sin of Self: Friends, take your time and go over this post again from the beginning.. How many times was ME! mentioned. I have have been angry because my wants was just all about MYSELF. If God could take care of the birds of the air, how much more me. My timing, my desires, my plans were getting in the way of God's ultimate plans for me. I was so worried that i was looking ahead and not just into what God was doing at the present. Most of my desires where glorifying self, it was all about my ego.

*Sin of Impatience: Impatience is the greatest kill joy or peace thief of all time. Impatience made me to be so much in a hurry to get on with my desires and not mind the wonderful thing God had in stock for me.


Matthew 6:30-33(Msg): "If God gives such attention to the appearance of wildflowers—most of which are never even seen—don't you think he'll attend to you, take pride in you, do his best for you? What I'm trying to do here is to get you to relax, to not be so preoccupied with getting, so you can respond to God's giving. People who don't know God and the way he works fuss over these things, but you know both God and how he works. Steep your life in God-reality, God-initiative, God-provisions. Don't worry about missing out. You'll find all your everyday human concerns will be met.

I was so weak when God opened my eyes to these scriptures. I wept, I saw my arrogance and anger through God's eyes. At that moment i threw my hands up and gave it all to him. My Joy was restored, my peace was overflowing and is still overflowing.
The devil came to steal my joy from me through impatience and self. God has been working tirelessly to make sure am truly happy, by working out his plans for me.

Truly happy and grateful Gabby!!! 


Dear friends, some of you just like me, have been angry with God for taking you through the process. Just like I did make peace with your Maker. You cannot question His works in your life, just appreciate the one he has done and keep hoping that His will be done. Get the best of this time, learn what you are been taught. Don't be ungrateful for the things that he is doing. Thank Him always.

God didn't promise us a smooth sailing he only promised us a safe landing.


There will be joy after the pain, joy will certainly come after the dark. He knows just what you are going through and he cares so much. Wipe your eyes and stop crying he is closer than you think. All things will work for your good. What he promises he will surely do.

God loves you. Have a blessed week.

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13 comments

  1. A good way to start the week, ppl shud learn that God's will and not there's will always prevail.

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    1. My dear, learning it isn't easy.. You really need to let go of urself,
      It's not easy only by grace..

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  2. Oh! Thank God we have a God who corrects and opens our eyes to things. He truly disciplines us like a father would. Thank God you're back with Him now. :)

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    1. Yes! Thanks to God almighty who in His mercy does not give up on us.. It feels good to be back sis.

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  3. I was once in your shoes, asked a lot of questions, got tired of praying not to talk of fast. But at the time he made all things possible. Truth be told, it's not always easy being in that situation but with God. It will surely be fine

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    1. This season is not the sweetest at all. I know he will surely prove Himself strong at the end. Thanks for your encouragement.

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  4. Romans 8:28 Yes, even in hard times, if we just stay still and calm we will feel Gods love in the midst of the storm. He is eternally faithful and He cares for us. Nice post, More Grace

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    1. Yes God is faithful even in our unfaithfulness.. Thanks dear..

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    2. yes, HE is. You are always welcomed :-))

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  5. I enjoyed this post and can relate to every word. Yes, I've had and probably will have these moments again in the future. This is why it is so important to know God's word. The word of God truly puts our lives into perspective. God loves us. Delay is not denial, let us use our time being grateful and prepare for even greater greatness. :-)

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    1. The truth is God's word is a guide for us at all times but sometimes we ignore it.. May God give us all the grace to see the greater greatness he has in stock for us even when things are rough or rocy.

      Thanks for stopping by.

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